Once gender ceases to follow biological reality, fantasy overwhelms reality, lie covers truth, and human beings disappear into the darkness of their own making.
"Your job on earth is what you do... to get paid to take care of yourself. But your work on earth is what you do for other people." - Leah Chase, the Queen of Creole Cuisine
"Running away... isn't going to help anything or anybody... If you can't take a risk, you're wasting God's good time on earth." - Leah Chase (1923-2019), Queen of the Creole Cuisine, chef at Dooky Chase's Restaurant
When you need Him the most, God often 'drops by', shows His face, and says, "Hello!" in the most fascinating surprises that your heart cannot mistake or misunderstand.
God does not expect a 100% 'Yes'. He knows the heart of human beings. Even in goodness and evil, humans cannot achieve perfection. He only hopes that 'Yes' is the best the human heart can give. His grace will do the rest.
There are many things in life that cannot survive without commitment and perfection - love and commitment in marriage, celibacy in the priesthood, remission from cancer... Even a 99% faithfulness in marriage (1% adultery), 99% exercise of celibacy (1% fling), or 99% remission from (1% unexcised) cancer leaves a vulnerability to infidelity that corrupts the soul, the body, and all relationships linked to them.
With the hunger of God welling in my soul, a soul cannot help but come back to Him again and again that he may bask in His glory, even if only in the glory of His Presence.
To be a Christian, particularly a Catholic, is permanently needing to kneel in the icon of Christ, He who is the center of his or her life instead of himself or herself through whatever spiritual experience that may be. It is complete dependence on God, His will, and His providence.